almost end of March

one month one post...it's like a monthly assignment thing.Don't know why just had this kind of habit and feel of writing a blog. Definitely it's not because I don't want to tell anyone anything regarding my stuff like what's been going on with me lately...how's my life...etc etc.

So, this month, for me, it's been quite crazy, or sort to say an upside down kind of life, again, life's meaningless if we tend to spend our life with just normal kind of life, everyday do the same thing, meeting the same people around, have no mercy on whoever's greeting you, or just simply having kind of don't know don't care kind of lifestyle...not having known what's going on around or just keep a distance with friends. Lately, I had a 'BANG' in my life! A friend of mine just scolded me with words of condemnation...i was like 'WOW'!!! Okie, time for me to cool down myself and then have a thought of myself...is it really that it's my own fault or just I'm try to be ignorant

Indeed, after the sort of quarrel, I choose to be silent and not to be defensive of myself...cause it's good for me to know other's thought of me, if not, I wouldn't know how bad I was. After a while of thoughts, I start to realize that I am just a kind of person who only do what's being asked, and just do it with all my heart, but having kind of don't care how other's feeling...sort to say, being helpful but with selfishness inside...no one knows what I am thinking, what's my plan, how to work out the plan in proper manner, how to keep everyone informed about the plan, what's the purpose outcome of the plan...things like that...so found out that I'm still lack of communication with other people when it come to work of an event. So, need to work out on that...get myself out of the box then get rid of this box!

Not just that, this month is just like an opportunity month for me to think out of the box...having chance to work on different kind of feel and manner, have the chance to work on another kind of system where I totally not familiar with...but still taking it as a chance of learning while earning...hahahaha!!! again, a mind of getting out of comfort zone and take the risk is just wondering around these days, thought of having a kind of business where the risk factor is higher, it's not that wanted to earn more money but to explore more instead of just keep staying inside a box...well, still working out of it...hope that this will come to pass very soon...